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A collection with prose notes reflects on friendship, illness, writing and return visits to places connected with family and personal history. This English version is an editorial translation for access; the Japanese text remains available alongside it for comparison.
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日本語原文 Japanese original
濱野成秋
我と長年過ごせし某氏の御心を思いやり
産土を厭ひ越し来て早や五十路ここぞ侍らふ煮魚を喰ふ
その目に師となる吾身を思ひやりて某氏は詠めるか
汝が墓は何処と問ひたる師の肩に寂しき影の移ろふ哀し
逗子の旧家を手放す心を謳う
浪子去り強き男も語り草星霜担ぎし生家もやがては
脳血栓間近か頭痛はじまる
襲い来る頭痛の潮や騒がしく
今しも死ぬるを告げる便りか
浪漫の会よ、果たして汝は永き命や？
この会は吾の励みと凝る耳に忍び囁く放念の声
他人の世をいじるは不遜と言ひたきか
文書くわが指キーから離れ
じんじんと頭痛は続く
じんじんと頭痛は吾身に迫り寄る
ネット原稿投げてぞ逝かめと
身辺を片付けること至難に思へ
わが生に脈絡つけむとペン執るも
行方知らぬは父母の物たち
今日の朝こそ心機一転よ
投げ出せばさぞ楽かれと思ひつつ
朝日に負けじと跳び起きてみる
今晶子のお孫さんの心情を思いやり
祖父母こそ勝手気儘と棄てたるも
利晶の杜に行く友厭へず
汝が志屈折したるを歓ばず
希わくば生きよ超えゐてまほし
古里大阪に墓参し法善寺の不動尊に打ち水。赤提灯「さち」さんで
法善寺水かけ不動に手を合はせ
幸とは何ぞや旅立つ間近で
観心寺にて管主永島龍弘和尚と語らふ
何故に観心寺は恋しきや
父母と通ひし水彩の紅葉
永島和尚に感謝。また同行された原嘉彌、大浦実夫、紅竹みずほ、
河内裕二の四氏にも心から感謝。まことに佳き日にてこれを幸せと
言ひたし。
（No.1934は以上）
English translation 英訳
AI-assisted English translation. The Japanese original remains authoritative.
Thinking of the heart of a certain person with whom I have spent many years
She turned her back on her birthplace and came here, now already past fifty, and here I am, serving her, eating grilled fish
She looked upon me, thinking of me as her teacher, and asked, 'Would you compose a poem for me?'
Would you, teacher, who asked where your long-dead tomb lies, have a lonely shadow shifting across your shoulders? It is a sorrowful thing.
Singing of the heart to let go of her old home in Zushi
A wandering son, a strong man, also speaks of the grass and stars he carried with him from his birthplace, which one day will be
Close to a cerebral thrombosis, the headache begins
The tide of the coming headache is loud and noisy
Is this news that I am about to die?
O Romantic Society, will you truly have a long life?
This society whispers to my ears, which are filled with encouragement, a voice of letting go
To enter the hearts of others is indeed very presumptuous, is it not?
To meddle in the lives of others is called presumptuous, is it not?
My fingers, which wrote the text, now leave the keyboard
The headache continues, steadily
The headache approaches me, steadily
Throwing the net article away and leaving
It seems difficult to tidy up my surroundings
Trying to find a thread of meaning in my life, I take up the pen
Those things belonging to my parents are now unknown
This morning, I feel a new beginning
Thinking that if I give up, it will surely be easier
I jump up, determined not to be defeated by the morning sun
Thinking of the feelings of Akira's granddaughter today
Her grandparents were careless and abandoned, yet
She still goes to the forest of Rika, and I do not dislike her
I will now offer this song, my own, to Akira's granddaughter again
Do not rejoice in your bent heart, my long-held wish
Would that you live, surpassing all, and be glorious
Visiting the grave of my ancestors in Osaka, I poured water on the Kannon at Fussan-ji Temple. With a red lantern reading 'Sachi', I prayed
At Fussan-ji, I poured water on the Kannon and joined hands with it
What is happiness, when departure is so near?
At Kanshin-ji Temple, I spoke with the abbot, Ei-shima Ryuuei
Why do you love Kanshin-ji so much?
The watercolor red leaves I shared with my parents
I thank Ei-shima Abbot. I also thank the ones who accompanied me, Hara Kiyomi, Oshima Minoru, Mizuhono Miharu, and Kawai Yutaka. Truly, on this fine day, I would say this is a happy occasion.
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