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A poetic speaker wakes in hospital, struggling with shame and gratitude while words for new poems begin to emerge. This English version is an editorial translation for access; the Japanese text remains available alongside it for comparison.
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日本語原文 Japanese original
混濁した意識の中で
目覚めると
いつもの病院の天井
ああ、生きてる
生きてしまった
情けない奴だよ、わたしって。
足元に誰かいる？ あ、看護師さん
私が意識を戻したこと、喜んでくれてる、連絡の眼が輝いて
私はオムツ替えの最中だった
手を縛られたベットの上で
数日間、
意識不明だったわけね
自分のしたこと、少しずつ思い出す
生き恥をさらして愚か者めが
知らない誰かに迷惑をかけ
救われた情けない奴だった…
看護師さん、有難う…
あふれる涙
堪えきれない…
追いつかない心で
生かされた意味を考える
情けない奴なのに、その心に詩の文句が次々分け入ってくる…
English translation 英訳
AI-assisted English translation. The Japanese original remains authoritative.
Amidst the murky consciousness,
I awaken.
The ceiling of the usual hospital,
Ah, I'm alive.
I've lived through it.
A Wretched Fool, that's me.
Is someone at my feet? Ah, the nurse.
Her eyes shine with joy at my return to consciousness.
I was in the middle of a diaper change.
Bound to the bed,
For several days,
I was in a coma.
I begin to recall what I did, bit by bit.
Shameful to live, a fool,
Causing trouble for someone I don't know,
I was saved, a Wretched Fool.
Nurse, thank you...
Overflowing tears,
Unable to hold back...
Thinking about the meaning of being alive,
With a heart that can't keep up.
A Wretched Fool, yet, poetry lines keep coming into that heart...
Original wording, author credits, notes and source materials are preserved there.