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A hospital awakening leads the poetic speaker to question survival, loss and the uncertain path ahead. This English version is an editorial translation for access; the Japanese text remains available alongside it for comparison.
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日本語原文 Japanese original
混濁した意識の中
知っている何時もの病院の天井が
被いかぶさって
ああ、生きてる
生きてしまった
情けない者
足元には看護師さん
私が意識戻したこと確認して連絡する
私はオムツ替えの最中だった
手を縛られたベットの上
数日間意識不明だった
自分のしたことを思い出す
生き恥をさらして愚か者
知らない誰かに迷惑をかけ
救われた情けない者
追いつかない心で
生かされた意味を考える
情けない者だけれど
まだ死ねない自分が
ここにある。
神よ
教え給え
私からあの人を奪い去った神よ
虚空に伸ばす指先に
汝がくちびるをふるわせて
告げてたもれ
行き方知れぬ女の
歩みの果ての雲の果てを。
English translation 英訳
AI-assisted English translation. The Japanese original remains authoritative.
Amidst the turbid consciousness
The ceiling of the hospital I know so well
Pressed down upon me
Ah, I am alive
I have lived
A pitiful person
At my feet, the nurse
Will confirm that I've regained consciousness and notify them
I was in the middle of changing my diaper
On the bed, my hands bound
I was unconscious for several days
I recall what I did
A fool who has disgraced himself
Causing trouble for someone I don't know
A pitiful person who was saved
I think about the meaning of being kept alive
With a heart that cannot keep up
A pitiful person, yet
I am still here, unable to die
God
Teach me
O God who took that person from me
With your fingers stretched into the void
You made your lips move
And spoke the words
To the woman who knows no way forward
The end of her steps, the end of the clouds
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