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A poem examines spiralling thoughts and a difficult relationship before claiming responsibility for one’s own mood and future. This English version is an editorial translation for access; the Japanese text remains available alongside it for comparison.
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日本語原文 Japanese original
あたし 変な奴
あたし いつだって苦しんでいる
そう、とっても些細なことかもしれないのに
あたしの頭の中は、ごちゃごちゃゴミ屋敷
ぐるっ、ぐるぐる、ぐるっ
サツマイモ堀りのように
過去まで芋づる式に手繰り寄せる
負のスパイラルだよ、負の連鎖
判ってるけど、そうなる。
ある日あたしに言った人
「おい。いい加減にしろ、もうやめんか」
苦しめていたのは、この人なのに・・・あたし
「もっと楽しく生きようよ」と、彼。
「もっと心地良くしなきゃね」と、あたし。
でも、自分のご機嫌はあたしがつくるの。
明日を、あなたになんか、作って貰いたくないの。
English translation 英訳
AI-assisted English translation. The Japanese original remains authoritative.
Me
Nao Takatori
2023.10.4
Me
A weirdo
Me
Has always been suffering
Yes, it might be something really trivial
Inside Me's head, it's a mess, like a junkyard
Spinning, spinning, spinning
Like digging for sweet potatoes
It pulls the past in a chain, one after another
It's a negative spiral, a chain of negativity
I know that, but it becomes that way anyway.
One day, someone said to Me
"Hey, enough already, are you going to stop?"
It was this person who was making Me suffer... Me
"Live more joyfully," he said.
"I need to make myself more comfortable," said Me.
But Me creates Me's own good mood.
I don't want to have you create tomorrow for me.
Original wording, author credits, notes and source materials are preserved there.