About this work
A poem uses the wait for warmth and rain to explore an unfulfilled relationship and the fear of speaking honestly. This English version is an editorial translation for access; the Japanese text remains available alongside it for comparison.
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日本語原文 Japanese original
貴方に嫌われたくなくて
ずっと良い子を演じてしまった
本当は、もっと言いたい事あったのに
本当の自分を出したら
きっと貴方に嫌われそうで怖かった
気持ちが邪魔をしてギクシャク
気持ちが誤解を生んでギクシャク
恋も愛も実らないうちに、
ずっと同じ場所で春を待つうちに
貴方を待っている夢は消えて行く
貴方は笑顔で現れて私に手を振るの
そして私の名前を呼んでいるから
嬉しくて頬に涙が流れて落ちた時
目覚めて知る悲しい現実
言葉はいつだって溢れていたのよ
木の葉が一枚風に舞い
地面に落ちる瞬間も
敏感に見逃せない貴方の言葉や仕草まで
傷ついて傷つけた心は
また傷つくのが怖くて傷つけてしまった
「この想いはいずこへ・・・」もう一度愛を温めて
心は乾いた大地のように恵みの雨を望んでいるわ
期待して空ばかり眺めているの
それは春を待つ気持ちみたいに
待てば来ぬ雨、降らぬ雨に憎い空
こんなに冷たい冬はない
こんなに冷たい貴方もいない
ただただ、春を待つ
わたしの心は寒い空
English translation 英訳
AI-assisted English translation. The Japanese original remains authoritative.
Because I didn't want to be disliked by you
I've always acted like a good girl
But I really wanted to say more things
If I had shown my true self
I would surely have been disliked by you, and it scared me
Feelings got in the way and made things awkward
Feelings caused misunderstandings and made things awkward
Before love and affection could bear fruit,
I've been waiting for Spring in the same place
My dream of waiting for you is fading away
You appear with a smile and wave to me
And call my name
When joy made tears flow down my cheeks
I woke up to a sad reality
Words have always overflowed
A single leaf dances in the wind
Even the moment it falls to the ground
I watched so keenly that not even your words and gestures escaped me
A heart that was hurt and hurt others
Again, fearing another hurt, hurt you
"Where has this feeling gone..." I want to warm love once more
My heart is like dry land, longing for the rain of kindness
I keep looking up at the sky with expectation
That's like the feeling of waiting for Spring
A rain that doesn't come, a sky that doesn't rain
I hate this sky
There's no winter this cold
There's no you this cold
Only waiting for Spring
My heart is a cold sky
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